Friday, May 28, 2010

The sun came out again

I'd really like all of my neighbors to stop their construction projects between the hours of 12 and 2-pm.
Ok..let's be honest, I would like them to stop it entirely, but I would be content with quite during nap time.
I'd also like them to turn off their music.
I'd like the sun to come back out again and dry my clothes on the line.
Maybe if it rained the hammering, drilling and sawing would stop.
I'd like to go back to bed and start this day over again.
I'd like to know why the kids keep crying at the slightest provocation.
I'd like to know why it bothers Lonnie when I need him to comfort me.
I'd like to be more patient, prayerful and faithful.
I'd like to have another baby.
I know it is crazy, insane and totally irrational, but I still want it.
I want to have have a big family.
I want my children to grow up in a home like I did.
I want my daughter to have a sister.
I want my son to have a brother.
I want to be a good wife and a mother, but I don't want to feel guilty just because it isn't always easy for me.
I want to be happy but all I can do is feel alone and cry.
At least the sun just came out again.

Monday, May 24, 2010

rainy days

What do you do when the rain won't seem to stop? First we make a mess of the entire house. Then we eat popcorn.

We read books to our dolls.

We make play-dough.
And when we have run out of ideas for play and messes to make we invite Gus over to watch a show while Mom makes dinner.

The weather has been strange lately. It is starting to get a bit colder, especially in the early mornings and at night.

A lot of the homes in New Zealand, including the one where we live, are not really built for the cold. They don't have insulation and they are often drafty. Lonnie and I stay warm enough under a nice New Zealand wool blanket, but we have started running a heater in the babies' room. I've also become converted to hot water bottles. Almost every night after doing the dishes (or Lonnie does the dishes) I fill up two hot water bottles to put at my feet. There is nothing nicer on a cool evening than nice warm toes.

We have had our first gray days, but thankfully they are still spotted with frequent clear blue skies and warm sun. Several times in the past two days the blue skies have instantly turned into heavy rain showers, thus thwarting my attempts at drying my clothes on the line.